my life as a crocheter & knitter & working mom

Wednesday, April 09, 2008


I have been a ball of anxiety the last couple of weeks and it just keeps getting worse. I know that once I get past tomorrow's trip and I'm in VT with my son and husband and family, I'll be better. But right now, I've got no perspective.

I don't think I've mentioned it, but I have to go to Pittsburgh tomorrow on short notice (they told two weeks ago) to meet with a PITA client. I didn't have a problem with the short notice and all, but the meeting is from 6:30 to 10:30 pm. I'm supposed to be in the car with B and Hubby Friday morning to drive to VT. Hubby says, just stay over and fly to VT from Pittsburgh and B and I will drive alone. Okay, so now I'm not anxious about the PITA client, I'm worried about hubby and B driving alone. Mainly because I'm worried B will be a PITA and hubby will be angry. I'm not worried about hubby making the drive. And then the PITA client needs to see us for a pre-meeting tomorrow at 11 am, so I get to leave my house before B is awake tomorrow and then have hours to kill between meetings (I'm taking the laptop to try to get work done). Did I mention that I have to change planes in Philly and only have 40 minutes between flights?

Then there's other work crap going on (underperforming employees, things I keep letting slip off my radar) and I'm just a wreck.

I know everything will be okay once I get through tomorrow and I'm meeting my sister in the airport in Burlington on Friday.

Strange thing last night, I didn't think I'd be able to fall asleep but as I was lying there I was infused by a sense of calm and well-being. I'm not sure how it got there, but I sure wish it would come back.

Tonight, I'm going to try to just enjoy my evening with B and pack after he goes to bed and try to just relax.

Unless, of course, another shoe drops between now and then.


Susan said...

Hmmm, normally I'd suggest drinking, but since you have to work and make that flight connection, etc. . . I think I'd have to suggest knitting. Then have a nice drink once you get to VT. Have a good weekend!

Adrienne said...

If you get this in some reasonable amount of time and are able to respond -- where are you staying in da 'burgh? I might be able to recommend a goo dplace to have a drink or three or a snack or something...

Stephanie said...

I love you and promise to be on time!